One of the hardest parts about being a caregiver, especially to an SCI patient, is that you are very limited in the time you can spend away from them. This is the hardest part for me because Dennis and I were very independent before his accident. Today I was missing my daughter big time so I called her and she is missing me also. We decided to meet in Enid, Okla which is about half way for both of us. Good plan right? This is where being a caregiver gets tricky because only a caregiver can know and feel the way we do. Guilt starts to trickle in because I am leaving Dennis with my mom and Dennis's dad all day. They have him everyday while I am at work and now I am taking a play day to go see my daughter. They sacrifice so much for Dennis and I and I don't know what I would do without them. Then, there is the reasoning side that says you are a mom and you need time to spend with your daughter and to go do something with her. Then, when you are there doing something with her you are looking at your clock wondering if everything is OK, should I hurry, should I call, etc, etc. It is seriously a no win situation. I just have to let God give me peace and calm my heart.