Friday, September 22, 2017

Coming up on 6 months!

I didn't think I would survive but here I am!  Sometimes the hurt is so unbearable it seems suffocating, but I always pull through.  I am taking a Griefshare class and we learned that if we need to cry then cry, don't hold it in and you know, it works.  It seems after I have a good cry I feel better.  I thought I would be farther along than I am at 6 months but in my class I have learned that everyone goes through grief at their own pace, and it's true.  It’s the little things that seem to get me.  Watching "The Office" or "World's Dumbest" and not having Dennis there to laugh with me.  I need his advice and wisdom on family matters and he is not there.   I always want to talk politics or religion with him because he always had good insight.  He kept me grounded, and now sometimes I feel so unbalanced or unsteady.

This is the time when I have to take hold of the anchor that holds me steady.  God will never leave me or forsake me and I have to hold on to the promises He made.  He is working all things for my good and I have to trust in Him.  Like the song says  "When I cannot see it, God I still believe it, You are working all things for my good.'  Please keep Whitney and I in your prayers as we continue on in this journey.  Much Love, Cheri



Sunday, September 10, 2017

The Days are Getting Shorter!

The days are definitely getting shorter!  When I walk in the morning it is very dark and it used to be light and beautiful.  It makes me a little melancholy, another first without Dennis.  I had the first summer, the first anniversary, his birthday, going back to Grand Lake, the car show and the first OU sooner football game.  I feel like I have accomplished a lot in 5 months. Now, I'm headed into first fall, first Halloween, first Thanksgiving and first Christmas, UGH!  I'm reading a book called "Grieving and the Holidays", and it has been very helpful.  It says to take it slow and don't do anything you don't want to do.  I did get my fall decorations out today and it wasn't as painful as I thought it would be.  I just really don't want summer to end.  I can be outside and not stuck inside but I know I will get through it with God's help.  On an up note we had an Alince Cleo reunion and I got to see three of my classmates! 
                                              This is the football field on my morning walk. 
                         And this is a goat running past where I work.  It's a small town people!!!
Thank you Lord that you are always beside me, guiding and lifting me up.  Much love, Cheri