For the eleven years I was a caregiver, you always had conflicting emotions. If you were out doing something fun and your loved one couldn't go, there was always a guilt factor involved. Since Dennis passed away it has taken some time to get passed that emotion because guilt is a very powerful tool that Satan loves to use. But, we know our loved ones would want the best for us, and that is what I cling too. I had 37 years with the most wonderful man, but now, I have to find happy again. At least as much happy that is possible without Dennis, until I see him and Jesus in Glory! Some days I don't think it is possible and some days I do, so I have to take it one day at a time. I know without a shadow of a doubt that Dennis would have wanted me to be happy, he was that kind of person. This month some friends and I went to see REO Speedwagon and Dennis would have loved them!!
We had a great time!!
Yesterday I went to the Oklahoma State University Homecoming game! We had so much fun.
Much love, Cheri